Day 118: The Root of It

I slept in late. It was kind of nice. I usually don’t like to sleep in too late, but sometimes you just need it. The groceries got delivered, I got my shower, and started my day. I was late getting yesterday’s post done, so it took me almost all day to get it posted to the site. I hate when I get behind, but it always seems like if it’s not one thing, it’s another. I’m trying to learn how to balance it all, but doing it in a way that is super formal or strictly scheduled just doesn’t feel realistic for me. I’ve never really functioned that way. Maybe because I never had that structure growing up. I figured things out as I went, and somehow, I still do.

When things get bad, I always seem to pull it together. I do what needs to be done when it comes down to it, but I’ll be honest… I’m tired of doing it that way…

Quiet Part Day 118: The more I stay with what actually grows, the easier it becomes to see what doesn’t have the capacity to. I am learning to stop watering what isn’t rooted enough to hold anything real. It’s harder than I like to admit, but I can feel how this process is building something stronger in me.

April 28th, 2026

The extended reflection continues within The Inner Archive: Day 118: The Root of It