Day 117: Still on Course

To explain how I am feeling would only confuse everyone. So, all I can say is… this has turned from something I started as a way to ground myself in my writing, to take responsibility for this website, and to become a more consistent writer, into something that has made me realize how vulnerable this work makes me. It puts me at risk. Not in a way that makes me want to stop, but in a way that makes me more aware of what people can do when they get close enough to the heat that is me. Maybe it makes me a little paranoid that someone is going to try to get one over on me, because I will be brutally honest… there have not been too many people who have proven they can handle it. Men, women, all sorts of people have tried. No one has really been able to withstand all of it the way they think they can… and it is not because I am hard to please or because I expect too much. It is actually quite the opposite. I hold people accountable.

What people say when it comes to their intentions, whatever they may be… they should be held responsible for. Especially when it affects other people. Even more so when it affects me…

Quiet Part Day 117: Some things fall away because they were only meant to teach me what stagnancy looks like. I don’t need to leave or change direction… I just keep walking my path. Everything else will sort itself out. That is how I move.

April 27th, 2026

The fuller entry continues into The Inner Archive: Day 117: Still on Course