Day 152: Returning to the Path

Twelve days without writing… and now, June 1st. As hard of a time as I gave myself originally for not being a consistent everyday writer, I am so glad I decided to take some time off. To say it has been a rollercoaster would be a complete understatement. What I have realized in these last two weeks is astounding.

The ways people distract themselves. The ways people detach from what they do. How they act. How they make others feel. How do they justify the ways they behave? It makes me want to completely shut down, but just as terrible as I was feeling, the ones who see my light, love who I am, and appreciate what I bring helped bring me back to myself. They made me feel so much better.

I am still sad, but I think that is just part of it. Some days will be like that. That is life. What matters most is how I deal with it. How I respond. I have realized that my pain can hurt so much that I exert it outward in hateful, rageful ways. The rage I feel is pain. It is years and years of disappointment and confusion brought on by other people. I did not ask for it. Life is already hard enough, so why would people want to make it worse?

Quiet Part Day 152: I may have taken a detour, but I did not lose the path. I learned what I needed to learn, even if I hated the way it had to arrive. Some things take time to become wisdom. For now, I can honor the hurt, protect my peace, and keep building from the part of me that still believes there is more ahead. The ones who see my light deserve more of me than the ones who only knew how to dim it.

June 1st, 2026

The next part opens inside The Inner Archive: Day 152: Returning to the Path