Day 114: Alive With It

You know that little voice in your head… the one that screams, “Why the heck did you do that? Why did you react that way?” I used to feel that all the time when I was younger, but I can say for sure, I do not feel that way anymore. I hardly react to things now, but the things I do react to are a big deal. I really am easy to please when it boils down to it, especially if it is something I want to work through. Ask my husband that one, but when it comes to these people, these communities, I see a side of me that I know I have in me… and I would be damn good at going that direction, but do I want that? It is fun for some time, but to be part of it or be labeled to one specific group has never been me.

I beat to my own drum. Always have and always will…

Quiet Part Day 114: I can feel disgusted and inspired all at the same time. Apparently, that is called being alive. The energy has to go somewhere, so I might as well put it where it can become something useful. That is how I keep becoming instead of closing.

April 24th, 2026

The rest of this entry continues inward from here in The Inner Archive: Day 114: Alive With It